Welcome 🤲🏻

Hmmm… How do you start a blog!? 👀 I guess just like this! Wow. To be honest, I have NO idea where this blog is going. I am on a healing journey from childhood sexual abuse and everything feels trapped inside of me. My words, thoughts, feelings, memories, anxiety… it’s all STUCK. 🥴 I have been dabbling in this blog idea for a while as a way to get my words and feelings out. I have a hard time with bottling up all my thoughts and feelings until it feels like I’m full and ready to explode. Maybe just maybe this will be a good release for me and can help someone else along the way.

Let me introduce myself! 👋🏻 My name is Vanessa. I am a 31 year old Christian, Married, Mom of 3 boys! 🥰 I am so so blessed with the most perfect little family and life. I am originally from a very small town in Ohio where there’s not a whole lot to do except take off through the cornfields or watch the Amish trot by.

Approaching our late 20s, my husband and I decided we wanted more out of life and took a huge risk relocating our family to Myrtle Beach, South Carolina where we lived almost 2 years before moving to Cocoa Beach, Florida! More on that later! 🏖

We are a family of 5 with my amazing husband David and our 3 sons Hunter (14), Connor (12), & Parker (8). We also have 2 amazing pups Clover 🍀 (19 month old Shih Tzu) & Claire 🤍 (11 month old Portuguese Water Dog), a 2 year old Leopard Gecko named Spot 🦎 , & 6 White Leghorn Hens! 🐓 🥚

I am currently self employed taking cleaning and home health jobs with my CNA license. We recently started a rental car business with Turo, and I own a Network Marketing business helping people improve their Health & Financial Freedoms! 🍎

In this blog my hope is to share life. 🌅 I want to share the thoughts in my head, the healing practices I find, the experiences I’ve been through, while on a journey to heal within. My soul feeds on helping others. So if this blog can touch just one person I will be fulfilled and it will all be for something.

I can’t promise what future posts will hold. I have a lot I want to say but it’s also very scary to be vulnerable and open up in ways I never have. 😬 About a month ago I posted on Facebook about my struggles. This was the first time I’d ever publicly disclosed voluntarily. Writing is such an amazing tool but it can also be triggering. My story was given to a psychologist and I was forced to testify to what I wrote in court at 15 years old. My words were no longer my words and I couldn’t find the words to speak it all. 😶

But I am ready to take my power back. For 20 years I have been a victim. Now I’m ready to be a survivor. And move BEYOND surviving! 🙌🏻 My words are my truth and I should be able to express it without fear and worry. Although it will continue to be scary, I know I will overcome. I know that there is such a brighter outlook ahead and I’m going to share with you my journey and how I find it!!! ☀️

This blog will not just be about my journey through recovering from CSA but about Life in General. I will blog about being a Mom, an entrepreneur, a business owner, a wife, a friend, our travels, pets, and anything real life. I would be honored if anyone would like to follow along. 🤗

➡️ PSA❗️ I am NOT a professional anything. I am not a doctor or therapist, or claim to be an expert in the field. I am simply sharing my life experiences, how I experience them, and ways I find to heal. Take caution and seek professional help if you are struggling also.

I guess that’s all for now! I have so many topics and ideas and thoughts to share just scrabbling in my head to get out! My promise to you is to be as real and vulnerable and open and sharing as I can possibly be. I am on a journey to heal and you should be too! 😉

With Peace & Healing Love ❤️‍🩹

Vanessa 💙

(Workman Hands 🤲🏻)